Real stupidity....

Orthopaedic Posting!! Nearly the end of the third week, but i'm not sure, if i can be a good MO in orthopaedic when i completed my posting next week. Attended every clinic, ward rounds, lectures and teachings, and even flock with the senior, but needless to say, at this current moment, i feel hmm....empty...is this an ultimate stupidity or just a feeling out of trying to be perfect. I'm not sure.
Mr Suhail, Mr Shahril and the team are perfect. The senior, among the best group ever, really supportive, informative, and great friends indeed. Book, i had been using apley and till this current moment, i had borrowed 4 books from the library, with another book coming from Ai Peng. Not sure, what is wrong, but i truly feel something funny is happening...and i guess...the problem is all about ME, I and myself!!
Anyway, i still got another week before the posting really end for the my intermediate clerkship. And u bet, i will put on my medication cap and my thinking cap as well, to bring back the REAL ME to restart my Ortho's engine and proceed to the highest gear to achieve what i should. Really need HIS help, the almighty to do his miracle. And to dear readers, pray for me, and wasalam